I had the coolest dream of all time. I was a world maker. Except I didn’t have the body I have in real life. I had olive skin. Long brown silky hair. Honestly, I looked like Millie Bobby brown if she played an Amazon warrior in Wonder Woman 1984. And two people I love dearly in my waking life were there: Beryl & Jim (lol, their names together looks like Pearl Jam). Except they were my bullies. And I had no idea who I was or the power I held. I was a goddess (or someone with superhuman power) living a human life. Beryl was supposed to my friend, but she kept blowing me off for her studies and her other friends. It didn’t matter if she was studying, I just wanted to hang out with her because she was my friend. I’d even help her study. But she’d always go to IHOP with her other friends & study without telling me & avoiding any contact with me until too late. It was so hurtful. And Jim, who I have a massive romantic interest toward in my waking life, was a bully, as well. He ignored me constantly. And he revealed at the end of my dream that he and Beryl were only friends with me in the beginning as a joke. This hurt ‘dream me’ so much, but part of ‘dream me’ did notice that he said “in the beginning,” but the hurt was too overwhelming & I was coming into my power, so I could no longer control or pent my emotions. This girl had the human experience of rejection, pain & loss just like every girl, except she had power & it was growing into a frightening level. In the dream, as this girl, I was searching for answers, everyone kept avoiding me. I wasn’t sure if I was raped or not. I had no memory & no one would tell me what happened. They all avoided me. I practiced w/ a broadsword & I was excellent. But in this state of anger & hurt, my moves were too quick & strong. I started forming these metal balls alongside the blades and they kept getting bigger & bigger. And when they reached about 70in in diameter (219.8 circumference), I realized the balls I was making were planets. And it frightened me & it frightened others. And then I saw one of the men that kept avoiding me collapsed on the floor. I stopped my world making & I asked him for the answers. Defeat filled his eyes, his chest & his shoulders. He looked up with the most apologetic, pathetic, frightened eyes & revealed the reason for why they avoided me. “The reason we kept avoiding you is because we were afraid of giving you an answer that you wouldn’t have wanted to hear is that ‘I don’t know.’” And when he said ‘afraid,’ I feel like it was genuine fear. On the surface it did not make sense; I was the new girl & they had no problem being rude to me, ignoring me, rejecting me. But their earthly bodies must have recognized the potential anger of saying, “I don’t know” to me & the consequences of that anger. My dream ended was so much conflicting, confusing, overwhelming emotions. I couldn’t pinpoint them. It’s almost as if it was left on a cliffhanger.
This dream appears to represent feelings of rejection, betrayal, and a struggle for power. The dreamer takes on the role of a powerful being with superhuman abilities, yet is faced with the hurtful behavior of people they care about. Beryl, who is supposed to be a friend, consistently ignores and avoids the dreamer, while Jim, the dreamer's romantic interest, reveals that their initial friendship was a joke. These experiences create a sense of profound hurt and loss for the dreamer.
The dreamer's growing power, symbolized by the development of metal balls into planets, becomes both fascinating and frightening. It represents the dreamer's potential to create and wield great power, but also highlights the fear and apprehension others have towards this aspect of the dreamer. The dreamer's anger and hurt manifest in their swordplay, which becomes too quick and strong, leading to the creation of these planet-sized balls and causing fear in others.
The moment where the dreamer confronts one of the people avoiding them symbolizes a search for answers and understanding. The person admits their fear of giving the dreamer an answer they wouldn't want to hear, indicating that the dreamer's anger and potential consequences are recognized by others. This fear may stem from the dreamer's ability to wield power and the unpredictable nature of their emotions.
Overall, this dream suggests a complex mix of emotions, including hurt, confusion, and a desire for answers. It may reflect the dreamer's real-life experiences of feeling rejected or betrayed by people they care about. It also highlights the dreamer's inner power and potential, as well as the fear and apprehension others have towards that power. The dream ending on a cliffhanger indicates that there is unresolved emotional turmoil within the dreamer, as they continue to grapple with these conflicting feelings.